❥heart and pieces

reach home loOo. oh home sweet home. (:
eye half close, so tired but i had a wonderful nice.
the dark dark sky were fill with star. so beautiful.
with mummi food make the night so perfect.
it had been sometime since last went see star star.
use to go with dar to see star star.
today wind quite big. so air is cool, so nice.
babii, i miss you load.

✖You'r my Sugar RUsh
1:35 AM

3rd day.without him.
at home with daddy, mummi, brother.
singing ktv and play card. X)
waiting for the rain to stop.
Everyone is packing our barang barang now.
we are going bbq & fishing!
heez fishy here we come.

✖You'r my Sugar RUsh
6:52 PM

just reach home.
yawn... oOoooo~
just now joe help me 看命.
love life for me is hard.
is alway me the one that putting in more.
nothing come back good.
ii will only get marry after 25.
will end up marry with someone who love me more than i love him.
she say ah da & my relationship wont last long cos hai mei kai hua.
she tell me if he is my after year he will still be my.
who know in the end he will be my Mr.right.
after hearing. seriouly i dont feel good ya.
haa... why m i try so hard yet nothing come back good argh! sad ya*

girl dont think so much let fate decided ba X)

later in the night going bbq orhz.
got to go shower & charge myself to full battery for the night.

✖You'r my Sugar RUsh
6:38 PM

people use to say promises are meant to be broken.
ya i agree.
time and time of broken promises make me feel wordless.
there is nothing i can do.
cant say any thing. dont wish to force you.
so just give in to eu & does it mean that all the give in had shown eu that
promises that eu made are not longer important.
every little promise eu make i do hope it come true, boy i really do but...
you telling me i m alway tired but had eu ever think. why m i alwae saying so.
i doubt you would be bother to think abt it.
cos of you get lot of (-) word from family.
i really hope eu can proof them wrong but to you it seem like it not important. ):

action you done make me feel = insecure
word you say make me feel = m no longer important
Hope that my acc make you feel happy. but my appear seem to extra.

You may think that m thinking to much.
All eu had done make me feel this way
we are so near yet so far.....

baby you had let go my hand in dark & eu dont even knew it........

✖You'r my Sugar RUsh
10:34 PM

HO HO HO~ MERRY X'MAS. (:

it wasnt a happy xmas eve for me.
though there would be suprise awaiting for me.
but it end up the same way. it disappoint me.
but i m glad that you are here beside me. *smile*

xmas eve in the office.
nice food for our lunch.
then xchange our gift.
person who chossen me is karen. she brought me a heart shape neckless.
after xchange of gift. Amy let us lucky draw. i got a watch.
cos no money didnt brought any present for money decided to give it to mummi :)
Agnes brought me a mouse rest for me. so cute. it a doggie. really like it alot.

It was a half day for the whole office cos i am having my leave on 26/12, 27/12
got to complete all my doc so joanne wont be like too busy cos of my work.
i work till 8+. that silly joanne also acc me too. hahaz.

About her thing hope she can soon overcome.
Go with your heart. dont regret ya.

-Pass few day alot of thing i done wanted to share but cant use com-

saturday was 汤圆 day - it mean last day of 冬天 mean 春天 is coming. one year older.

those are the 汤圆which me and mummi made. X)
mummi girl of her acc her early morning to buy ingredient.
i do the pink and she do the white one.
while doing all the round ball mummi tell me her story when she was small.
everytime when big day like this whole family *big uncle and auntie*
will wake up early in the morning to use pure bean make it to flour
and do all the cute roll ball. when the 汤圆they still had to use basket to carry
all the barang barang to temper to pray. everyone will be very busy.
very happy cos that day mum say there be lot of thing to eat.
though there isnt alot feel like last time. but still feel the same warm.

how to make 汤圆~

-after rolling all the flour in to small round ball.
-boil one big pot of sweet sweet soup throw our cute round ball down.
-after 8 min it will be ready to eat.*
easy right! haha

yammi though it hot. but NICE!

on thursday, hoilday daddy and mummi all prepare curry and mee actual meet my uncle
to go fishing but. it rain since early morning.
ended up one ah boy, his gf, dad & di di go only.
only at late afternoon me and da da bring all the food down for them to eat.

on the way in. dar carrying all the food asked him to do his funny face. LOLS. shhhh
*he didnt know i post this pic here* hee X) one more funny de cannot put*

so cute of him so heavy still can do this kind of face.

1.2.3.~

when the night fall..... start to get boring, dont want to left without them so wait for them.

me & dar start our photo taking!

under the only light there..... /2 rabbit oOoommmm /see that 花吃! haa

our love love... / mauckZ... / together side up side

though it bore but m having so much fun talking with dad. i love eu daddy!

on sunday when meet dar dar. come and fetch me from tampines MRT.

naught us start taking photo again.

to his auntie house/ under the void deck/ opps! my tongue! hahaha.

reach there saw xuan xuan she is so cute. wake up early in the morning after breakfast.

in the room playing pillow war.!

with the yellow monster. hahahaz.

the yellow monster lols / xuan xuan on her yao yao / xuan pinching dar mouth

me xuan xuan dar/ ti koU sian xiao mei mei/ our cute shoot! *angry*!

1.2.3~

me../ me & xuan/ ahhh~ Ooooo/ :X

:P bleahz/ in the train home....

haha xuan xuan hen cute ya. she love take photo just like me. all the funny post i teach her so cute. she brighten my days.

when m slping she will use her pillow to shake my hand.

when m watching show she will pull my hand to acc her play hid and seek.

when m sitting down she will put her hand infornt of me asking me to hug her.

kide are simply so pure.

no evil throught.

no fake smile.
Everything from them are so ture.

angry they will shout their lung out

sad they will just cry to the hardest they can

happy they will laugh to the max they can X)

miss her ya.

✖You'r my Sugar RUsh
11:39 AM

it was a dam busy day. from morning till 6pm.
i had been rushing and rushing seem like thing are coming and coming fm no where!
i didnt even had my lunch.
after work open my drawer.. i saw call and call my miss call. *I am sorry didnt know eu all call*
didnt manage to fininsh my work but still hee... i went back home.
realli miss mummi food. actual meeting da at tampernis also didnt go.

after dinner i am so late to do any thing lay on the bed.
hugging my big phone bao bao & ZzzZz. there go to my dreamland...........

hahaha X)

✖You'r my Sugar RUsh
6:14 AM

Was on the phone zhu toe now.
hee he show me one of his blog which he say 99 sorry to his hunny(last year)! so touch.

below are some that really touch.

-Sorry for making you do things which benifitted me more most of the time.
-Sorry for making that beautiful smile fade from from your lovely face.
-Sorry for ever doubting your never-waning love for me.
-Sorry for only looking at the results rather than the process of everything you have done for me.
-Sorry i made you lose your confidence.
-Sorry for failing to be attentive to your needs.
-Sorry i said i love you when i didn't even knew what it really meant.
-Sorry i failed to hold you hand tight all the way.
-Sorry i failed to stop breaking your heart time and time again.
-Sorry i failed to keep my promise to spend the rest of my lifetime with you.
-Sorry i failed to understand what love is all about.
-I'm sorry i failed to cherish you.

~The above make me feel so sad. cos some of it, my boii did it tO me tOo.
Cant understand what boi mind are thinking ya.

Got to stop here. get myself doll up and go out.

ZHU TOE: Dont think so much k! Everything gonna be good for you X) nananana~

✖You'r my Sugar RUsh
8:36 PM

its sunday sunday. got to go back work tomorrow. sian!
boring boring boring cant even go out.
present haven do yet. dont seem to had mood.
got to force myself to do later on ;)

im mummy good girl today help her do housework &
wake up in the morning to acc go eat breakfast at west coast ya.

she brought me pink nail polish. hee. i LOVE pink!
mummi brought alot of shampoo and detergent. so heavry.
all i take cause her hand pain. that stupid david! ask him wake up dont want.
eat so strong slp slp slp!

-slp too much wont be better but worst.! it true orhz. X)

✖You'r my Sugar RUsh
4:37 PM

word she say keep flashing through my mind since yesterday. mm
upset? disappointed? angry?
lot of why why why...

Do friend calculative? or it depend on what kind of friend?

ya mayb i m right it depend on what kind. mayb i not that kind of friend ya.

actual this is not the first time having this kind of feeling. *sad
after heard min word feel much better.

at first was like thinking mayb it was me who make thing this way so was even feeling more sad.
she change till so selfish, wont spare thought for other le.

i really believe time can change lot of thing nothing is forever. wasnt the one i know i want. ;(

-Time really can fade love, friend shpt, pain.

✖You'r my Sugar RUsh
8:18 PM

yawn~ so tired. yesterday slp whole still cant get back the energy that lost on friday night. friday night was xiao pang birthday.

after work i went csc to acc mum. ah boy was working there also. acc her till 9+ then went down tanjong pajar to meet dar and fren.

went le bar to drink. to me i feel boring cos dont know leh. maybe not good fren ba. so only there play i sit there. dar acc me the whole night didnt let me feel i was left out. Poor xiang pang drank go vomit after vomit continue. haha. so funny.

What bring laugher of the night is AH BENG. haha. dun know how to describe him. he want to drink with xiao pang but everyone seem wan to see him drank. he kept saying is xiao pang birthday why wan him to drink. Kept saying he is not drank when he himself cant even stand straight. LOLS playing hand game is the max. haa. he dont even know what he is doing. then they try to disturb him put a beer with chili let him drink. so bad. haiz. Poor thing lor. drank till like that still want to act strong.

After le bar they still wan to continue so went to access at BK. ii was so tried cos not to spoil he mood. play till morning 6+ reach home 8 then slp. bingo one 24 hr didnt slp ya. ZzzZZz...

but i had fun that day with dar acc. X)

now trying to load my pic. argh!!!
dun know what happen to barry card reader this com cant read.
outside access

i like this pinking monster. X)) can i hab one toOo.

✖You'r my Sugar RUsh
12:08 PM

yuppii~~ it thrusday... tml will be dar last day in camp. ORD days. finally 2 year. done.

Hope its a better start yup. miss eu lots. lalalalalala XP

✖You'r my Sugar RUsh
11:46 PM

omg all i wrote gone gone gone. argh!!!

its raining the whole day, sky were so dark in the afternoon.

know what Yizhen view my profile today. mmm so coincidence, she flash throught my mind this morning when i was on the way to the MRT. dont know why just suddenly think of her. reach office log in my frenster i saw her view me. When i saw i feel..... dont know how to describe the feeling. it wasnt good. Was like hmmm lot of unknow answer between her and da. to her i dont know should i hate her or what. got a sudden feeling make me wanna be her fren but why why must i. thought it not her fault is da who bad and brought her into this. dun know. just hate it. she lie to me that night. thought da tell me nothing between him and her but i just cant believe. i know i m bad hee. dont believe him but.. haiz.

hee i got the idea of the (cannot say) ('',) ... haa. so happy. hope 1st pair can be done soon. everything must be done b4 25/12 ho ho ho~ X) shhhhhhh..... sercret orh... bleahz.

i miss grandma so much yesterday when acc Joanne to the sewing shop at china town. last time when ah ma still ok she teach me how to sew lot of thing. i miss her so much. so today thought the big rain i still went over and see her. call her at office. when i hear her sound. make me feel so pain. her sound so soft. when saw her make me feel heart pain. she was so thin so thin. :( poor ah ma. uncle told me she eat alot so that the reason why. so i told ah ma to promise the next time i see her she must be fatter than now. she smile. :) her hand cant open. keep feat her hand. she told me fall down. i help her massage. her leg and hand. heart pain pain see her like that. AH MA MUST GET WELL SOON. chun chun bring eu out. promise. X)

kkz got to stop lot of ting waiting for me to do. zzz

✖You'r my Sugar RUsh
10:20 PM

wasnt really fine pass few day. since saturday. really didnt expected that he had treat me that way. our band were lost. the $50 & $10 which mean so much to me lost tOO.! cos he is drank! with all his fren drank till he didnt even know how the money lost. still putting all the blame on me. fren ya important. i am becoming more and more boring to you! m so upset to the max! he didnt even feel it. next day treat as nothing happen. hump!!! hur hur... dont feel like forgiving him no more. he will continue all his "good" pattern again and again. he wouldnt cherish only he lost it. it alway like that. change for few month back to his own self. say more becoming naggie.

it was a bad day. face look so bubble today. cos didnt slp well pass few day. hmm do my face really that bubble make me look ugly.? sometiime some comment make me feel so discourage. no confident.

still thinking of a design. shhhhh X) for someone special. hope it still not late yet.

✖You'r my Sugar RUsh
10:42 PM