❥heart and pieces

work wasnt going good for me. seriously i dont know what should i do. make cold call? call coloader to get cargo? i also dun know where to get cargo? i m lost in the middle of no where? stress............. lost zone......

✖You'r my Sugar RUsh
10:03 PM

i ammmmmm sooooo tired~~~~~~~~~

what a dayz. so much thing to do cant even breath. call and call. shu chun please shu chun please~~~ lols. more and more connection to do.. scary. night mare. back home me alone.... eat alone. watch tv alonE. I AM SO BORED!!!!!!

i miss you. yesterday wasnt a good day for me neither him too. money again. family again. hais if thing wont change, one day he will gonna left me again. with you boy? i know he care, he dont want me to get hurt. i too know he wanna help me. but how long can he do so.

will he willing to be my guardian angel to protect me from hurt and tear. Solve my problem. will i be his little sweet heart hugging me tight let me stay warm and safe. even when it gonna be the end of world. he will be there.? right there with me.? will you my boy?

O... it raining heavily outside. just hang up with da. we had a nice talk erm... a sweet one. haa. so much to say. haaa.. but he is too tired for long talk. poor boy marching whole day long in the sun. thank god. it raining big now. so he can rest well under his warm blanket ya. haa. hope the blanket able keep him warm. heard him say b4 that the blanket wasnt that thick. so baby remember to slp tight tight k dont get cold orh. baobei gonna miss you to night.zzzz

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* * muckZzzzzz~~~ gOodnight............... * *

✖You'r my Sugar RUsh
9:34 PM

i am so sad today... sob sob. it alwae like that wanna meet up it alway ended up this way. quarrel again. i mayb so stubborn. but he will nv let me. asked me to meet him he go bath waited at office till 7. no call. ii know he forget all about me. so i go take mrt first cos dont wanna him to wait to long. reach the mrt finally he call. i wasnt angry at all. ii ask him why didnt he call me when he finish his bath so i can get ready to go. he kept telling he is in darren call unable to call. he dont wan like that to happen also it too sudden. he did even know what i was asking. making boil to the max... quarrel and hang up the phone. sad wanna go home really wann go. scare reach home miss him. so i take mrt over. he sms me ask me to go home. wanna break. but i still go.

reach yoi cho kang. call him handphone off. no battery le. waited again. finally he call asked him to come he tell me he is tired. AGAIN AGAIN TIRED! didnt i make the afford to come. cos wanna see him. thought he ask me to go i still come. cant he feel it. yet the reply was this.!!!! telling me i m alway like that wana zhe mo him. my heart was borken. he say this to me. telling me i making he life so difficult. ): ask me to go.

wad u wan me to say. wad you wan me to do.i did wad i need to do. i hang up telling him how i feel but noting go in. ii tell him i dun wan to talk to him any more. i walk alone from yck to amk. sit and smoke. he sms me tell me he not my prince. i will find someone better. haa.hais. tired i am tired of all this. he dont know wad i wan.

i call him i tell him. to pay cab fare i go over & still buy food for him. cos i know he is tired. mayb i stubborn cos all this i am sorry. but dont you think i had did so much. when i reach he is not downstair yet. wordless....... he is just an other ah wei. i am not important just someone who he use to live with.

confuse. tears like rain. be will nv know. how i feel i wann him to bring me cos i wan to know how much i m in his heart sleep or me. why m i alway doing all the move.

now i know i m nothing to him.!!!!!!!! i give up!!!!!! SLEEP more important.

not sorry can forgive de. not hug can cure my pain. no.

✖You'r my Sugar RUsh
10:24 PM

didn't make any cold call today. hee. busy doing some change of doc.

remember yesterday about the punch card think. whole day saw amy didnt dare to see her. today is also her baby king boy birthday. was playing song for her baby. having so much fun that suz. LOLS. keep making me laugh. hmmm she asked me in to her office. so scare. she was nice. smile at me. once i seat on the chair. i smile to her told her sorry about that punch card matter. also know that we had make her in a difficult situation. apologise to her too.

she did ask me is it joe who ask me to do this. i just tell her i dont know tell her don't ask me. cos i don't want to got joe in trouble. dont know if i reply her this way will i get her in trouble? suz say i will.

i also did tell amy that if she will punish us so other will not say she side me. i tell punish 1 month. argh! i shouldnt had say that. she say yesh. lols. hopefully she wouldnt tell joe n suz that is i suggest. they will fuck me upside down. LOLS. in the talk she was nice. happy.

hope tomorrow will be a peaceful day.

ya one more thing joanne hubby that basted!!!!!! he sms my phone scold joanne ccb. nb. i scolded him back thatcb say my word make their family laugh. argh! how i wish i could give him a big slap and shut his big dam mouth up.!! that cb BASTED!!!

a hubby which dont help our in the family. a father who dont even give a dam on the childern. how putting all the blame on her. her 2 children hate her as she beat them as they dont do homework and steal thing now blame everything on her all she wan was to teach them good. hais what is this world LIKE ya. hate guy like him i really hate !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sad. dont say about him.spoil my mood.

✖You'r my Sugar RUsh
10:24 PM

got caught red handed dun know which idiot!!!! idiot!! go complain about the punch card thing. Amy check the punch saw me j and s is all the same timing de. haiz. die le la. she must be beri angry de. dont know what to do. i think just amit ba when she ask. hee i went running today leh. haha. finally~

✖You'r my Sugar RUsh
10:14 PM

*yawn yawn* yuppi!!!!!! finally i am done with this blog. work today were relax. but hmmm feeling telling me S dont look good. not like last time feeling that she is not gald about the work job that were given to me. i did feel the unfair tOo. hais. what i reallii want was the increasing of pay and learn more thing. felt uneasy. after work went hospital (NUH) to meet di wei. daddy come fetch me. haha daddy back i miss him so much. that dam doctor give di wei attitude didnt even ask him how is he feeling ask him go out take medician and get his MC. what doctor is this. mum when in and quarrel with him di wei went in with mum too. he tell was 2 different thing di wei scolded him lan jia. LOls guess wad the doctor went to get the police in. what a irresponable doctor is this. reach home we had our dinner together. eilene call today ish her birthday actual meet her for dinner but. nope cos she bring xuan xuan out. Bring ah xuan to my house. so cute i even feed her jelly. teach her how to throw her slippery. LOLS. got scolded by eilene. hee. haven bath. water ready. stop here.

waiting for daddy in the rain. xuan xuan and me.

✖You'r my Sugar RUsh
10:48 PM

tired smelly~ wake up busy cook for the 3 pig in my house. di wei sick le having fever 39.5 since yesterday night till now. hais. cook porriage for him he also dun wan to eat. still go catch fisihing in the night with mei mei jie jie and family. before that da n me went movie. the detective. so scare. after movie saw en hui too. dar n mi bought 1 pair of hand phone key chain. hahaz hen cute.

before movie.

panda. orh orh............. dada + chu chun

Muck muck... X))

after the show. Lols hen cool ya. copycat! bleah XP

miIiiii~~~~ en hui and me in kfc the penquen. da carry all the barang baraNG

bus stop are you watching us. =P lalalalala

reach home lOoo. the sunset. phone chain that da brought.

da.chun.rabbit

the night~~~~~

fishing & lor kan time......

the fire for our fOod

ho ho & me! da da & me da & feng rong

trying to act coOol.. haa. time for fOods.

it had been sometime i had not go down to the watch to catch lo kan. yesterday night i when down with meimeijie jie and di wei. though he is sick he still gO. haha alot of fun. but were the food of the night of the mosquito. my leg where so itch. catch alot of Lo kan :) haa. on the way back to the island walking in the mud. eee. leg where cut by all the stone. and thing in the mud. sob sob. poor leg. hee. but we had fun.

after everthing were sitting at the side talking with da. had such a nice talk. da brought down the fireworks which he and brought from his friend which bring from the Malaysia.actually wanna play on my birthday. it so beautiful. :) i had fun. cos di wei not feeling well so when back home earli.

video. of the firework

go to stop and bath. bringing di wei to hospital.

✖You'r my Sugar RUsh
2:24 PM

cooling morning~ wake up lOoo yesterday both J asked me to the meeting rOom. Thay had change my Job to Customer service. first thing come to my mind was argh! stress.! i am afraid i cant do it. a small head with such a big hat. afraid ppl will had the thinking is due to j dote me so i am able to do customer service. port were shifted out. left my bangkok and durban consol. but i will work harder to proof them wrong ya. Bought 4 cute cake for my dar! for apologies about the previous night for mistaken him with all my nonsense. that tan qi guai ate one yesterday when i putting my temper. haha. but he left 3. after breakfast i took 2 out.

haha. dar: hur hur dear no no that my you cannot eat

the biG mouth still laying on bed 2 biit there go the cake. goNe!!!!! X))

act cute!!!!!! >.<

kk got to stop. his dota time. he starting all his naggii. later going for movie. X) yeppii

✖You'r my Sugar RUsh
12:05 PM

i wanna earn more money. a rush of learning property agent. so that daddy and mum can stop working still home relax. ii will try no matter what. xiao yi going back to USA on Saturday morning. feel like visiting her but was afraid she wont be have time to chat had to look after baby ashely. actually really miss her alot wanna talk to her. Just cant get the right time. hand phone got cut off. agh! dam it! can chat on the phone. so boring. da pass me $150 ask me to pay for the bill YEPPIII~ shall make the payment tomorrow. guess what mei fang had give birth to her baby girl so cute. view her profile just now. so xin fu. James dote her and her baby girl. hao jealous ya. daddy going holiday with his friend tomorrow. chatted with him just now. dad really getting older and older le. sometime really feel like hugging him but can get the courage to do so. Hope he will enjoy himself.

✖You'r my Sugar RUsh
11:12 PM

it so somky da, di wei, rong, and matu all smoking in my roOm playing card! argh. it was a tired day yesterday. wake up early in the morning preparing all the food for our baby ashely bithday (: this is the first time saw ashely so cute and pretty.

~*+Little princess+*~

.oUr biRthday giRl.

xiao yi zan & ashely

Everyone attenition were all with her. mum, xiao uncle and xiao yi zan go buy cake and some decoration. mum cook was nice yammy~ though during the morning in the kitchen she was kind of frustrated by us cos we did help much. below are some pic of the day

✖You'r my Sugar RUsh
12:43 PM